I don't know what to do with myself most evenings right now. It's strange to me because The Polish Guy and I haven't spent time together on weekdays since September. Still, this seems to be the place I'm stuck in right now.
I've always prided myself on being able to fill time. Sometimes I can fill time doing absolutely nothing. It seems now isn't one of those times.
I feel lethargic, but agitated at the same time. I don't want to do anything, but I feel like I need to do something.
I tried mowing the lawn - it does definitely need it. I gave up when the lawnmower stalled the second time.
I could focus on the never ending always there tasks of running a home, but I probably won't. I could go for a walk, but I probably won't.
TV can't hold my attention and neither can reading.
Instead I wander the house aimlessly, never quite settling on anything.
In truth, all I want to do is go to bed and sleep so that today will be over and tomorrow can begin.
Wash, rinse and repeat.
Try something mindless, like painting a door. Worked for me when I was there. I hate when people say "hugs," so, uh, rum.
ReplyDeleteI'm an aimless wanderer, too. Clean out a closet. Healthy purging. And I hate the "hugs" thing as well, especially when accompanied by ((()))). So I'll just give you a cyber slug in the arm instead.
ReplyDeleteMy strategy for dealing with a break up was always to bury myself in work, and then eat and drink too much when I got home. It made the days go by a bit faster. But I remember the wandering. It sucks. But it does get better.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
(^^sarcasm^^)
I remember just sitting and staring at a wall. Then I tried kick-boxing. Turns out, I suck at kick-boxing. Rum seems like as good an idea as any.
ReplyDeleteEvery comment is a hug really. It does help. Let's face it, almost everyone has been dumped and been where I'm at right now at some point in their life.
ReplyDeleteI just want to get back to normal and be able to blog about my usual foolishness.
Oh, I'm so sorry. When I was having a bad spell and couldn't really concentrate on tv or books, I took up knitting. (and I am not crafty at all) Once you learn to cast on, it's a fairly mindless activity. It gave me something to do and it sort of helped bring me back around. *rum* --Lisa
ReplyDeleteI knit - but since my current unfinished project is a hat for The Polish guy, I might wait a bit on that.
DeleteAnd while you're knitting or crocheting or doing SOMETHING with your hands, listen to audiobooks. Not angsty ones, though. Humorous detective novels are a good idea.
ReplyDeleteI've been reading. Jeffery Deaver right now.
DeleteWhen I feel down I say to myself, well time to buy a new video game. It's hard to feel depressed when you are dive knifing guards and shooting laser weapons at poeple.
ReplyDeleteI would have to get good at video games first. Of course imagining what the neighbors would go through if there were three of us in the house cursing at on-line players is kind of funny.
DeleteAwe! Sounds like you're stuck in a rut!! You need something new and exciting in your life... Do something out of your comfort zone! Or change your hair color. A shocking change of events may be just what you need.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Valerie
If I ever get time to go for a hair-cut I'm thinking of purple highlights. Or something. I could get my tattoo redone but that would probably piss my mom off.
Delete